I've been a thinking.

Thinking about what in this world makes me free,happy.

And i discovered a lot of things.

Like, riding my bike really fast and then letting go and putting my hands out to the sides to just let the air take me away.

Sitting on my roof talking about insinifigant things

Looking at the sky on cloudless nights

Kissing for long periods of time :)

laughing uncontrolably

Laying in the grass on sunny days

Swinging as high as the swing can will take you

Staying up really late just because

All these things and more that you don't even realize until you are in the middle of the experience.

But then i realze well geesh Sarah just because these things make you free doesn't mean it's what makes others feel free.

It's crazy on how different every single person is

but it makes me happy :)

I bought new mascara today :), so now my eyes look pretty! I think i'm going to go and play dress up and listen to music really really loud. Then once i'm all done i'm going to eat lots of junk food that makes me feel like i've gained 12 pounds, then i'll go to sleep and be happy. I'm going to make tonight a blast :D

O my! It took me forever just to figure otu how to write a new one of these things . yesterday was  a really good day. I enjoyed it mucho :). I wore no underwear yesterday let me tell you it was great, i felt like i had my own big secret, even though when i was in Kroger i would walk by some people and i could of swore they knew my secret. It brought a whole new level of being free. It was really nice. I think i'll have to do it more often. Kayla was right, and it doesn't hurt anybody and the world doesn't stop. I cleaned housse most of teh day and they i went and ate with my daddy. he turned 50! I was hoping he would of brought Tersea with him. I would like to get to know her, she seems really nice and good for my dad. I would love for him to get married again. I think he'll be tons more happy. After i ate i went and hung out with zach. I had such a great dya with him we just went to my house and hug out with my parents but it was nice, you know? Just calming. It was that fun and goofyness that i needed. And things between me and him are better now, especially since he has a job now. It's not his favorite thing in the world and he doesn't make what he would like to but i know he enjoy's it simply because it's a job. It was affecting us when he didn't have one. He was pretty down on himself and felt like he wasn't doing his part as a boyfriend, because he couldn't ever take me on any dates and gas was tight, but what he really needed to realize was that those things didn't matter to me, yes dates are nice but the thing is i love him. I love him for who he is and that I'm happy just being with him. So now he has his confidence back and he's a lot happier and way less stressed! Thank God lol.

I very much dislike hannah and travis dating. Everybody else is all yay I'm so happy for you 2, you guys are great together, But no they're not. people really just don't know, they don't really see what's happening. Yes, don't get me wrong i am happy for hannah at the same time, because she has a boyfriend. She's making friends she feeling emotions she hasn't before. She's had her first kiss! Any sister would be happy, but there's another side of things. first off Hannah mentally is 12-13. Travis mentally is 22. that's a big difference 12 and 22 year olds think very very different. Secondly they are not right for eachother they both need somebody that will say "buck up this is how life is, this is how people are, and this is how god made us!" Instead they bring eacother down and pout and cry together about how lame they are! they don't encourage and tell eachother to go after things to look for big things, instead they stay inside there box and tell eachother that they will never get anywhere in life. Now tell me is that how a realationship is suppose to be? nope. Secondly everything is his way. He chooses and makes every decision. he decides when and where they are going to hang out. It all has to be on his terms. He's aloud to change things at last second and decide he would rather go play Halo. Yesterday they were hanging out and he just left and went to the fair with out, she didn't even know he left! And when he does surrveys. i ahet how he answers the questions. "Does this person joke around with you?- she tries" Is this person smart?- She tries". It makes me very angry. And she's very mean to me when he's around, but i can deal with that, I expected that much.

Okay well now that i got that out of my system i feel better. I have to give boogie a bath and i need to shower myself :). I wish the weather was nicer, i'd like to go to the fair again with becca and go with Zach too.